Boy, Interrupted or Notes From The Nut House...

I'm sorry so much time has passed since my last posting. Things didn't work out as I had planned, but I do believe all will be ok going forward. Things got much worse with my depression and I sort of went off the deep end. I landed in a psychiatric hospital for 3 days. In a matter of 3 days, the experts were able to address all of my woes with a major change in medication and lots of sleep. It was the right place for me to be, but a scary one all the same. I hope I never have to go thru this again.

You know things are bad when you're sitting in a psych ward comparing yourself to the other patients --- thinking to yourself, "OK, I may be bad, but those 3 are really nuts!" ...and then all 3 get released while you remain under observation. Ugh! Not a happy space.

Anyway, I was released from the funny farm after 3 days with the understanding that I would need to attend mandatory inpatient psych care for two weeks. I just completed my second of ten days of psych care. Essentially, I am required to sit in on group therapy from 8:30 AM to 2:30 PM during the work week. They also squeeze in an hour's worth of one-on-one therapy each day. I have to admit that some of it is quite beneficial. I am most impressed with the staff at the Bayridge Psychiatric Hospital. However, by the end of the day, I am completed driained.

One of my doctors confirmed that they will release me to return to work on a half day basis effective for June 11th! ...provided I attend all sessions and "we" have no set-backs. I am ready to return to work and get my life back to normal again. I am confident that there will be no set-backs and that I will attend all of these mandatory sessions.

This has been one of the most difficult periods of my life. I will be happy when I can move on and focus on ordinary life again! The stay at the hospital has done a world of good for me ---- Karl has told me that I am smiling and laughing again for the first time in several months.

Anyway, that my update for now ---- hope to get back to my standard posts soon! --- And thanks for all of the sweet emails of support! They've meant a lot to me.